The idea of getting drunk and being cool

X: Lets get some beer when you're here!

Y: Sure, excited to see u!

Z: Well, you don't drink dear....

I just arrived home from Friday Night's out with my senior in campus. I keep on thinking about being invited to have some drinks. Shall i say Yes or Shall i say no? If we say No, people rather will think of us in negative perspective; if we say yes, we somehow find ourselves out of place. But those thoughts are actually immature yet happening in reality. Or i can say that's the least thing of a wise person can think about.

Its funny because we want people to adapt our values, rules and regulations yet we don't give chance to understand others'.

I'm not coming because I don't drink or I'm not coming because its bad or I'm not coming because I don't wanna pay for that (well, that's a cheap reason for not coming :p). We made indirect reason to avoid the chance of understanding others' values, rules and regulations.  

If life is all about being safe in comfort zone then there'll be no learning, no realization about how cool life is, and most of it there'll be no wise man.

I'm not saying that the idea of getting drunk is alright but the idea of enjoying life, get out of your comfort zone, say Yes if you think it does challenge your life. Whether its cool or not, rather it does not matter. It's not about what we face, its about the process, the idea of enjoying it and have it as adventure. We don't have to change our values in order to understand others'. Have things under your skin and learning comes within ourselves on how we digest it, and last not least, saying Yes is good. Say Yes not because you want to please others but take it as adventure in life. And I know, you know where and when you have to say or NO!

Be happy and Enjoy life! .... Let your LIGHT shines in the darkness.

with love,

Rence

#SongOfTheWeek

The Beautitutes

My best-friend told me, I probably will look different this summer or I'm maturer than before (maybe that's what she meant). I told her I'm only getting older and wishing I'm wiser. The past days, I spent my midnight reading my bible, a wow level-up. I enjoy every scripture I read, it does open new perspective. Indeed, that's the greatest book on earth. 

How is college? I would love to say, its doing great. It does, well it's just that the great things sometimes only achieved after we face mountain of problems. I'm facing it right now. I don't want to see college as burden in life, I believe this is part of learning, part of life. Well, I do keep myself  on positive perspective. And grateful for every bit of dilemma, problems, steps am facing right now.

Love and Friendship. I am so grateful having Mariana and Riris, my high-school bestfriends. Tasya, my forever mate from middle school. I learn things about friendship here, rather I'm grateful for these Women of God. My mates, my best-friends, they do keep me in balance. And most of it, they support me in everything I do, they tell me when they don't like about something, we share same vision. 

I found myself in funny way where I always considered people every time I made "Yes" decision instead they do find my decision oppose their wants or what suppose to happen. I just don't get, am I in a wrong way? Your good is NOT good enough. Learn more, Do good things not because of people but for Him. 

At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another.  But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, He saved us,not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. Titus 3-5a

I don't find myself very religious, I do think I'm a bitch sometimes but I long to learn How he loves us so I can learn to love others the way he does. So sound religious, but I'm telling you, when you realize about love is the greatest of all things, you will know the real means of freedom in life.

Once I pray the lyrics of Hosanna, it says, show me how to love like You have loved, breaks my heart from what breaks Yours. It does break a heart when hatred bigger than love.

Love is louder than pressure to be perfect. Especially His Love.

With love,

Rence.

And yes! Couple pics of mine today needed to be post too! Thanks to Ram and Roshita for make up and Hair do! Super love!

 Last thing! I was searching MotherTukker in India on google last February 28 instead I found my pics on search engine. So funny and brought highest happiness on my birthday. More interesting, Max Cantellow replied my tweets two times and one fave (so detail!) So favorite MotherTukker!

Draw The Line

Given Situation: Any Crush/Longing-for-someone situation

My friend Mariana urgently chatted me about her friend's crush situation and this girl seems very patient, too patient and a bit of foolishly love. I know how it feels and have never drew any line between me and my crushy. I regret it tho.
We had this topic in our cell-group last week, some guys tend to act cold to the girls; girls tend to act too foolish in this kind of situation. Why are we hoping for a false hope?

At this kind of situation, the right thing to do is DRAW THE LINE, THROW THE QUESTION, MAKE THINGS CLEAR. You might either save or break your friendship....but the point is be true to yourself.
I am totally done with assuming things and I think my previous crush (still crush) is actually has no idea about what I feel because I explain nothing.

and one thing....Be aware of YOUR POSITION! and get someone in the same level as you. What you think better might not the best of the best YOU CAN GET!

Anyway #prayforthePhilippines, we're having not-really-good-days with #Habagat and #MaringPH in the country. Stay safe and dry mga kapatid!

Xoxo,

Sharon

Jules?

Jules....that was funny

Aren't you gonna laugh with me?

We're friends, they said

Should I ask you, again?

I had amazing free weekdays, get done with my outputs earlier than I thought. Although there are some that isn't yet done (News is totally NOT my thing). I had great weekdays, very productive, roaming the school, doing nothing....End up with pity weekend because I catch Cold! Sore-throat (my voice is kinda sexy now!). Although last night I had crazy friday night out with my gang.

Ada satu hal yang sedikit membuat gue 'WOW' yang gak mungkin untuk diceritakan disini karna kemajuan teknologi yang disebut google translate. Inti nya ya, Tuhan Yesus aja yang Tuhan nyuciin kaki murid-murid nya...Ya kita yang baru mau jadi boss aja, masa tidak bisa merendahka diri. Kalo uang bisa dikasih, tenaga, pikiran, semua nya dikasih lah! Ya lucu aja gw tadi nyuci piring yang seabrek-abrek sambil mikir kaya begini. I am indeed  a boss (to be).

Jules, WhatsUp? How's................everything?

The intro above is nothing, I was just talking nonsense while doing dishes. 

Two songs remain in my head Jojo-Andre and Sara Bareilles-Between the Lines. Andre and me always between Youtube and reality. Hahahah

There's a crazy story last night at Marquee. Someone told me that I am bola-bola or I can say I was flirting to him. It was Crazy, in my 18 years of living and having 9hours courtship, that was the first time a guy/foreigner/marketer told me that I am not Indonesian because I bola-bola him. O my God! God bless You!

Nelson inspired last night's topic. Asian-American? 

Midnight Samgyupsal---Totally recommended but NO FOR GARLIC!

How's the weather? Stay safe, take care, drink plenty of waters.

xoxo, Renc.

I Kissed Dating Goodbye

Yes! I am reading Joshua Harris' book. I have read 'Stop Dating the Church', now currently reading this amazing 'I kissed Dating Goodbye'. I'm not trying to do book review but somehow i feel my eyes are opened for something new, something better in store.

Joshua said in his book, What is the aim of relationship? Are you sure that you're going to marry the girl or the guy? or your relationship is aimless or aim to-an-end?

I feel so heartache lately, I feel like I have given false hope and stupidly I believed that. I'm having crush for a very long term is crazy, i mean we're not even in any serious relationship, not even talk but i feel weird, amazing heartache.

I just got home from Immigration, Manila, with Byron. I read the book, not yet done but almost done. I tried to understand the stories, tried to relate with people around me and most of it, I tried to relate on my aim of having a relationship. 

And i go back to my reason why i want to have a boyfriend......because I feel alone somehow i can help myself from the loneliness but still i want, thats my heart desire....but not from God's perspective. I try not to being too religious. But i believe He got something awesome in store.

Honestly after i read the book, I understand that, my relationship isn't only going to church every week (I am longing for this) but We need to, have to serve our Lord together. I don't want the 'demand of relationship' makes our weekend waste in mall, shopping, eating, movie-ing (Although i want all this things) but I try to see in God's perspective. He has given the BEST out of the best...Why don't we give our best too?

Keeping the healthy (body, mind, spiritually, soul) relationship with God's lead. That's all i want to pray, but for the mean time, I thank Jesus for the blessings, for school, for good friends, and let me just enjoy this before someone in store is coming out! 

I salute Joshua Harris for writing amazing amazing book, which has opened another perspective in my life. And for Stop Dating the Church, i start to open and to see where i really can give my heart unto. 

Cheers,

Sharon.

on the same surface

i feel so amazed to meet this stranger for 2 days in different places! I felt like wow when i met this stranger for the second time. Its not like because he's a guy or whatever, its just that its so cool to encountered this kinda situation. We didn't talk tho' but i believe both of us were wondering when we saw each other earlier.

We met in Oppa Korean Resto, me and ate jen ate there last night, i loved the place, its like reminiscing high school period where my brain was filled with K-Pop stuffs. O yeah, i was madly crazy in-love with Korea and their stuffs, i think even until now. I still find that Korean girls and guys are so unique and i just love when they talk to each other. So this stranger was eating with his gang (ahjussi's gang), he doesnt look old  although i consider him as ahjussi. Anyway, i no care with age, looks, or watever....im just amazed that i met him again! isnt it kool?! its like stalking with no intention. or u call this destiny? Hahhahaa. I do believe in destiny.

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Anyway tomorrow is my last day in the Philippines, im leaving on Friday, fly-thru Malaysia then Jakarta. I just can't believe that I have done my second year in college without tears of homesick. I did feel homesick, it was crazy, i felt lost for a month but i handled it! and this could be the last summer that im coming home because from what i hear next summer will be the start of internship. okay, its still long way to goooo!

Ive read this somewhere in tumblr, this aint the proper quote but the point was like "there are times that we actually already meet the person whom will be our partner" U know wat i mean, right? hahahah!!! I just don't understand why but i keep thinking about this one.....hahha well maybe i have. But whooooooooooo??? I wanna know, like in one song that i forgot, it says we can be friends first. Hahahahha!!!

Cool things come to those who worked on it. I really really thank my Lord, Jesus Christ for all these blessings, good grade and good life and good family. I cant say that i worked hard on my college days but it all turned out good. I may not that really good like im not typical church girl, i believe each of us has different call. So, work on that call for the glory of Our Lord!

I'm so amazed and happy for some people! They are like inspiration for me to work more beautifully.

Love, Renc.

Have a lovely summer and the rest of second sem loves!!!

Komunikasi

Komunikasi.

Komunikasi adalah salah satu aspek penting dalam kehidupan, karena dengan komunikasi satu sama lain baru bisa nyambung. Semua orang dari kecil sampe tua berkomunikasi, tapi pertanyaan Apakah kamu berkomunikasi dengan baik? Banyak lah orang yang merasa kalo udah nih saya udah berkomunikas dengan baik tapi pada kenyataan engga, dia gak berkomunikasi dengan baik.

Banyak hal yang mempengaruh komunikas menurut pandangan saya. Mungkin karna saya kuliah jurusan komunikasi saya banyak berpikiran tentang cara komunikasi dilingkungan sekitar saya termasuk keluarga saya. Banyak hal-hal yang sebenarnya merusak komunikasi didalam komunitas. Perbedaan bahasa disini karena saya tinggal di Philippines saya tidak mengerti bahasa tagalog, but I'm trying to understand.

Hal-hal yang mempengaruhi komunikasi (menurut pandangan saya ya) :

• Pada saat anak baru lahir pertama kali diajarin cara berbicara, berkomunikasi. Menurut saya masa-masa ini sangat-sangat berpengaruh. Ada keluarga yang menggunakan bahasa yang formal 'Aku, kamu' ada juga keluarga yang menggunakan slang language 'gue, elo'. Ini benar-benar berpengaruh dalam kehidupan orang tersebut apalagi disaat anak nya tumbuh dewasa.
• Intonasi pada saat berbicara. Banyak pembicaraan yang rusak cuman karena Intonasi yang salah. Kata-kata nya benar tapi cara pelontarannnya yang salah. Karena itu disaat kita sedang berbicara kita harus mengenali suasana dalam perbincangan tersebut.
• Cara bicara antara satu sama lain. Seperti yang ada dikeluarga saya, kami biasa untuk berbicara 'gue, elo' tapi kami juga memakai nama seperti 'Ma, kemaren eren......' tapi pada saat pembicaraan dengan kakak-kakak saya ada hal yang 'Lack of our Communication' dan menyebabkan kekesalan. Mungkin karena kami biasa berbicara dengan intonasi yang tinggi dan sebenarnya saya sama sekali tidak cocok dengan cara berbicara yang seperti ini. Untuk tipe orang yang seperti saya 'cengeng' mendengar orang yang berbicara keras benar-benar menyakitkan hati. Saya bisa nangis kejer-kejer cuman karna kata-kata orang yang sedikit menyinggung hati saya padahal orang tersebut sama sekali gak bermaksud.

Pembicaraan diantara teman-teman.

Mengenai hal ini saya banyak berpikir pada saat masa-masa SMA. Kenapa dia marah sama saya? Memang nya saya ada salah sama dia? Tidak kok saya engga ngerasa berbuat salah.

Pikiran-pikiran yang nyangkut diotak saya waktu SMA. Sampe akhir nya saya ngaca bener-bener ngaca, OH OKE SELAMA INI SAYA SALAH BESAR. Saya ngomong semau-mau saya, saya gak peduli perasaan orang lain, saya begini saya begitu sampe pikiran yang paling jelek saya, yaudahlah gak usah punya temen gak apa. Tapi gak gitu, masa-masa SMA masa paling asik dan paling butuh komunikasi yang baik, karena terlalu banyak issue-issue yang nyampe dikuping kita dan kita sampein dengan intonasi yang salah dan penambahan kata-kata yang malahan jadi bumerang baru buat kita. Ada beberapa hal yang saya pikir-pikir harus kita jaga dalam komunikasi diantara teman (Especially High School Period):

- Sebelum ngomong dipikirin dulu.

Saya pikir jarang anak SMA jaman sekarang yang ngomong dipikir dulu. Semua nya ibarat nya 'nyablak', suka-suka mulut gue, mulut-mulut gue ini. Tapi TOH engga gitu juga, masih ada orang lain yang mendengarkan perkataan-perkataan anda. Jadi setiap orang harus punya saringan untuk mulut nya masing-masing.

- Ngomonglah dengan intonasi yang bener.

Banyakkan yang suka teriak-teriak tanpa sebab. Dikurangi sebaiknya.

-Ada hal dimana lebih baik diam.

Ini yang saya lakukan selama Desember-Januari-Februari lalu saya diem. Saya ngaca bener-bener dan saya mencoba untuk berubah. Dan sampe akhir nya ada temen saya yang ngomong 'Ren, kamu kenapa?','Gue rasa lo sedikit berubah jadi lebih baik'. That's good, isn't it? Setelah kita menyadari banyak hal yang bisa diambil dari masa-masa Diam.

- Gak perlu ikut campur gossip-gossip yang gak jelas.

Kalo tau ya cukup tau aja, gak perlu ikut nyebarin. Karna pasti ada aja orang yang punya pikiran yang jahat dan menambahkan bumbu-bumbu HOT dan ternyata nama lo ada didalam gossip baru itu.

- Jadilah pendengar yang baik.

That's what friends are for. Cukup jadi pendengar yang baik bukan penyebar yang baik.

That's all for today!!^^

Gue gak tau kenapa gue nulis ini disiang bolong Hahaha---"

Ada beberapa tweet gue yang mungkin bisa jadi motivasti buat temen-temen :

That's your biggest problem for having POOR MINDSET!!Huffft, Poor you =))

45 minutes ago

shattsu SharonD

LAUGH LOUDLY FOR THEM FOR HAVING POOR MINDSET!!!

47 minutes ago

shattsu SharonD

Bodoh banget nangis karna kata-kata orang yang menjatuhkan, KETAWAIN MEREKA~!

48 minutes ago

shattsu SharonD

....Bear on ur mind, kalo udah maju 1000langkah, GAK ADA SATUPUN HAL YANG BISA BUAT MUNDUR 1LANGKAH~~~!

52 minutes ago

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shattsu SharonD

Disaat kita maju 1000langkah dan selama berjalan tiba-tiba kita merasa mundur selangkah itu sama aja kaya kembali ke 1000langkah awal....

BlessJuly-SharonD

Dear FairyGodMother!

Good Afternoon everyone, it's me again....
It's 4:33pm, I dunno what to do...Just chillin' out and listening to Mi-I Can't
I've been watching 3Dramas these days DreamHigh, Gumiho, and Secret Garden....My Gosh, yeah I feel goood!!Lol...watching korean drama it's just like recharge my batery HaHaHa...so How you guys doing?Hope yall in a good mood.
Ohyeah 2PM is going to Indonesia this March 19th, and yeaah I'm going to watch them-Hoooray^^~ ooHowIllove Taekyeon...But it's kinda sad because 'THERE IS NO JAEBOM' sometimes I can't accept that Jay isnt part of 2PM anymore..and JYJ is coming to Indonesia this March but I'm not going to watch them hehe...

I learn something when I watch this dramas especially Secret Garden, but the others too... When I watched Secret Garden, guess what?I feel like a 'Broken Hearted Girl' totally broke, haha don't ask me 'why' because I don't know the answer... Watching Gumiho make me think about finding Lee Seung Gi in real life, Hahaha only joking~ Am thinking about something good but actually I forgot HAHAHAHA...and Dream High, MyGosh!!!This drama is suit my life, reaching my dream out there...

Ohya HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!Last feb28th was my 16th-birthday...Until now I'm so thankful having a good friends and closed friends...Thankyou for my sweet-crazy Class #GHOST for the crazy surprise and POWER RANGER feat Tasya...You guys always be there for me when the good time coming. Thankyou for Suzy, I will be good to her haha (Suzy = Doll). I'm thankGod that am now 16, am growing so much, I know the world (not really that clear)...But having such an AWESOME GOD, Family, Friends, Close Friends, Haters, Lovers and all people around me make me want to grow up more and more and be a Succesful woman.

These days I like this FairyTale so much 'THE LITTLE MERMAID'
1st because it was on Gumiho and 2nd it was on SecretGarden(LOL)...Am wondering if theres a real life like these drama (for example : SecretGarden) I think her/his life will be very very very difficult...but it'll enjoyable...During hard time and good time you know you have someone you can lean on him/her...But when it's ended someone will go just like a bubble in the sea...What a Drama!

And Now we're talking about Jampang!!Yeah!!I have a looowt question about him.
- U know u look uglier?
- U look so miserable, do u know?
- Do you gain weight?U look fat
- Why you do that to that 'girl'?
- Do u know that I dont like u anymore?
- Why u call my girl 'b*tch'?
- Why dont u get some rest and back to you real life?Or is that your real life?
- You seems so DIFFERENT...One year ago I know a dude who always walking so firm, tidy and looking good...where is he now?
- Do you feel like you are the only dude in the world?
- Do you know what I'm thinking about you right now?

And Final words....
Keep Pray for me and for my education activity...There'll be a exchange student, I pray that I will selected by the teacher... And thankyou for the SweetFebruary...I'm going to have a CrazyMarch but Briliant...Thankyou for loving^^~

xoXo-SharonD

Happy Valentine, Love!

Hello there!!!!!I'm back, yeah it's me...Lil Miss So 'Not' Popular Lol!

It's Valentine~~ Yeaaah Sumthing special?Of Course....No!!!

Ha Ha I aint celebrating Valentine thingy..So how you doin guys?I bet yall doin greaat...

Just like usual I will write in 2 language which is Bahasa and English...

Hari ini Valentine Day yang adalah YUSA BIRTHDAY!!yeaaaaY!I'm sooo sooo excited, meskipun gak kenal gak pernah ngobrol...at least I knew you kak, and I like you a lowwt!Happy to be #24 nih yeaay, Yep Yusa, Kak Yusa, Om Yusa, whatever dia emang tua....Dan kenapa gue demen sama yang TUA? That's the theme of today post!

A couple of week ago, di hari jumat ada kebaktian (seperti biasa) gue duduk sama Nadya dan Opung a.k.a Vina...And Guess What?Nadya punya pacar baru (LAGI) ya itu sih udah biasa...Dan TUA lagi Waakakaka...Dan gue tanya "Nad, kok lo mau pacaran sama anak kuliahan?" dalem pikiran anak SMA seperti saya We better having relationship with someone who is in the same level with us (itu yang dipikiran gue) tapi Nadya berkata lain wkwk "Kalo pacaran sama seumuran ujung nya pasti berantem ren, ya biasalah anak jaman sekarang....Jadi gue mending pacaran sama orang yang 2-5tahun lebih tua".

Gue berfikir ini ada bener nya juga, karna dilihat dari pengalaman gue demen sama si Geraldine, gak pernah ada ujungnya tetep aja inti nya gue yang ngejar-ngejar, Padahal si 'Geraldine' itu gak WORTHED ENOUGH looh...Jadi gue mulai berfikir untuk tidak pacaran selama SMA ini berlangsung (actually it's about 3months). Gue berfikir gue mau pacaran tapi gue mau nya pacaran yang bener-bener buat gue bisa mempelajari orang lain dan bisa bersinergi sama hidup gue, yang bisa kasih energi positif bukan pacaran yang cuman main-main, jalan, ketawa-ketiwi for nothing. Gue mau sesuatu yang berharga yang gak cuman membuang waktu. Sebenarnya pacaran disaat-saat SMA-Kuliah tuh perlu tapi gue mau nya pacaran sama orang yang sudah menghasil maksudnya 'That Man will be my Role Model' gue bisa belajar banyak dari itu orang. Bukan berarti gue mau pacaran sama om-om juga ya -_- gue mau orang muda yang bisa bersinergi positif dan membantu gue buat jadi orang yang super sukses!

Ohya Gue punya Quote yang 'kece' abis Lol!

"BECAUSE I'M GOING TO BE A SUCCESFUL WOMAN, I NEED A SUCCESFUL MAN BESIDE ME"

Dan belakangan ini gue demen sama Lee Seok Hoon, Iyeaaay! Member SgWannabe pake kacamata, suaranya Mantap, dan seperti yang selalu ada diotak gue 'Kalo gue punya pacar, POKOK nya harus bisa diajak gereja" and guess what SeokHoon dipanggil Church Boy di OhMySchool u_u I can imagine all these things LOL!!!

10 REASON TO LOVE YOU - LEE SEOK HOON

Best Regards,

SharonD (Dang,Dang,Dang)