so happy birthday so understandable

I'm turning nineteen next Friday and going through so many "dampratan" for the past weeks. I'm getting wiser, Oh Praise the Lord. I was so insist about this thing, i just thought it'd be unfair for me if this isn't going to happen. Like, giving false-hope and i truly don't appreciate those peeps. But this time,  I still have no idea about what will happen but I'm giving 100% assurance that your beloved ones and Father above come first than any just-for-fun part of life...like me?

I, first, don't have any idea if I should understand every bit of this or let my feelings lead. But, He comes first. If I'm part of the list, then I am so happy. Seeing myself so depressed is so w-e-i-r-d. Especially, to think of mother tukkers again, its 2014, its my year and being bothered by some romantic moments lead to assuming ka lang is so two thousand eight.

I am just so happy (again) since if its not happening (just like I have wanted before), I am already letting things go. I learned that I can be special to all my friends and so grateful they are treating me in a special way.

Seven days to go to my favorite date & month of the year, February 28. I am flying back home this March 31, so excited to spend my last college summer break. 

And Cape Town has been so special. Lots of South Africa traveler/agent, marketer, quote maker's twitter account follow me back on twitter, just so happy to see it. So in love with Cape Town.

Don't ask about London, because she's the one. 

Just like what Louis always says, Enjoy Life, Live the Adventure

With love,

Sharon

Draw The Line

Given Situation: Any Crush/Longing-for-someone situation

My friend Mariana urgently chatted me about her friend's crush situation and this girl seems very patient, too patient and a bit of foolishly love. I know how it feels and have never drew any line between me and my crushy. I regret it tho.
We had this topic in our cell-group last week, some guys tend to act cold to the girls; girls tend to act too foolish in this kind of situation. Why are we hoping for a false hope?

At this kind of situation, the right thing to do is DRAW THE LINE, THROW THE QUESTION, MAKE THINGS CLEAR. You might either save or break your friendship....but the point is be true to yourself.
I am totally done with assuming things and I think my previous crush (still crush) is actually has no idea about what I feel because I explain nothing.

and one thing....Be aware of YOUR POSITION! and get someone in the same level as you. What you think better might not the best of the best YOU CAN GET!

Anyway #prayforthePhilippines, we're having not-really-good-days with #Habagat and #MaringPH in the country. Stay safe and dry mga kapatid!

Xoxo,

Sharon

Jules?

Jules....that was funny

Aren't you gonna laugh with me?

We're friends, they said

Should I ask you, again?

I had amazing free weekdays, get done with my outputs earlier than I thought. Although there are some that isn't yet done (News is totally NOT my thing). I had great weekdays, very productive, roaming the school, doing nothing....End up with pity weekend because I catch Cold! Sore-throat (my voice is kinda sexy now!). Although last night I had crazy friday night out with my gang.

Ada satu hal yang sedikit membuat gue 'WOW' yang gak mungkin untuk diceritakan disini karna kemajuan teknologi yang disebut google translate. Inti nya ya, Tuhan Yesus aja yang Tuhan nyuciin kaki murid-murid nya...Ya kita yang baru mau jadi boss aja, masa tidak bisa merendahka diri. Kalo uang bisa dikasih, tenaga, pikiran, semua nya dikasih lah! Ya lucu aja gw tadi nyuci piring yang seabrek-abrek sambil mikir kaya begini. I am indeed  a boss (to be).

Jules, WhatsUp? How's................everything?

The intro above is nothing, I was just talking nonsense while doing dishes. 

Two songs remain in my head Jojo-Andre and Sara Bareilles-Between the Lines. Andre and me always between Youtube and reality. Hahahah

There's a crazy story last night at Marquee. Someone told me that I am bola-bola or I can say I was flirting to him. It was Crazy, in my 18 years of living and having 9hours courtship, that was the first time a guy/foreigner/marketer told me that I am not Indonesian because I bola-bola him. O my God! God bless You!

Nelson inspired last night's topic. Asian-American? 

Midnight Samgyupsal---Totally recommended but NO FOR GARLIC!

How's the weather? Stay safe, take care, drink plenty of waters.

xoxo, Renc.

Excited!

I am so excited! Excited for smart people, blessed people, and winners!

I just wanna say to all pretty people around me....."IF I TAKE 5 STEPS, YOU SHOULD TAKE 10 STEPS AHEAD OF ME" be inspired!!! 

It's good to see this friend running in God speed, I am totally inspired. 

I'm praying and wishing for the competition, you guys are beyond cool, smart, and blessed. (that'd be cool having friends like them, Seriously!)

Rence, xoxo.

I Kissed Dating Goodbye

Yes! I am reading Joshua Harris' book. I have read 'Stop Dating the Church', now currently reading this amazing 'I kissed Dating Goodbye'. I'm not trying to do book review but somehow i feel my eyes are opened for something new, something better in store.

Joshua said in his book, What is the aim of relationship? Are you sure that you're going to marry the girl or the guy? or your relationship is aimless or aim to-an-end?

I feel so heartache lately, I feel like I have given false hope and stupidly I believed that. I'm having crush for a very long term is crazy, i mean we're not even in any serious relationship, not even talk but i feel weird, amazing heartache.

I just got home from Immigration, Manila, with Byron. I read the book, not yet done but almost done. I tried to understand the stories, tried to relate with people around me and most of it, I tried to relate on my aim of having a relationship. 

And i go back to my reason why i want to have a boyfriend......because I feel alone somehow i can help myself from the loneliness but still i want, thats my heart desire....but not from God's perspective. I try not to being too religious. But i believe He got something awesome in store.

Honestly after i read the book, I understand that, my relationship isn't only going to church every week (I am longing for this) but We need to, have to serve our Lord together. I don't want the 'demand of relationship' makes our weekend waste in mall, shopping, eating, movie-ing (Although i want all this things) but I try to see in God's perspective. He has given the BEST out of the best...Why don't we give our best too?

Keeping the healthy (body, mind, spiritually, soul) relationship with God's lead. That's all i want to pray, but for the mean time, I thank Jesus for the blessings, for school, for good friends, and let me just enjoy this before someone in store is coming out! 

I salute Joshua Harris for writing amazing amazing book, which has opened another perspective in my life. And for Stop Dating the Church, i start to open and to see where i really can give my heart unto. 

Cheers,

Sharon.

Gallery Girl - Short Story

Hi!!! I'm kinda excited for my short story, I think this is very typical love story but I just love it (maybe because i made it!). I submitted this story days ago, Got 85...pretty well for 2hours making of this :))
Anyway i made this based on my fantasy, imagination and inspired by some pictures and story, so if there's any similarities in any drama/movie/short-film/story, I am deeply apologize and i dont have any intention to plagiarized. Cheers!

GALLERY GIRL

“I’m leaving, aren’t you coming with me?” Gerald turned his head but his soul is certainly ready for jet plane.

It is certainly a too long day for both of them, conversation has done but answer is floating. The two are leaving for different direction in a different time, definitely not for good but for a pretty long time. Consideration to stay is still in mind to wait for the other-half. “But how about my future, I have my bright future too”, asked Karen in her heart.

Gerald and Karen has been good friend for years, good friend stage leveled up into some romantic friends. Being ambitious towards future, imagining themselves as a professional, working with each other, that is all what they have dreamed of. But everything turned upside down after college. Gerald decided to take his step to City of Manchester then Karen has decided to pursue her dream to Washington as a gallery girl.

(Flashback)

“Karen?” asked Gerald in their bbm voice chat.

It’s been a week since their last meeting. Blackberry is the only way to get each other. Both are busy but they try at least to send hello every day.

“Yes, Gerald, we should meet up, there are some things I need to ask” tell Karen to Gerald. “Then see you in Café around 1pm” replied Gerald.

Gerald have arrived minutes before 1 in the afternoon, He has ordered what they always order.

“Hi G! What’s up? Have u waited for long time?” said Karen while pulling her chair.

“I’ve been good as always, been busy with some papers….How’s your preparation? Ready for Washington?” response Gerald.

All conversation seemed like they are backing for each other but on other side both are asking what exactly are they doing.

“All are good, just there are some papers I have to do in embassy” said Karen.

“When are you leaving me anyway?” Joke Karen right before Gerald’s words.

“Hahaha, what are you talking about? I’m leaving next Saturday” answered Gerald, “We should have a date, right? SeaWorld would be great” He asked her out.

“Friday will do, right? I have things to do until Thursday, and I might be home late” told Karen to Gerald.

“Sure, I can pick up if you want, like my last ride for you” silly joke threw to Karen by Gerald.

And suddenly the café play their favorite song Sara Bareilles’ Love song. Karen smiled and Gerald tried to hold his laughs. As a fan-girl Karen knew the story behind the song, not a love song but a rebel song.

“U know that I’m not going to write love letter for you, right?” Joke Karen.

“You silly, let’s go now, I have somewhere to go” asked Gerald. They parted in parking car, “See you Friday” told each other.

Friday, is now the day. He’s leaving tomorrow but we have one day left.

“Pretty Morning to you, Ren!” said Gerald, “Who’s prettier? Me or the Morning?” asked Karen with her silly question”.

SeaWorld is one of their favorite place, the two loves Photography and seafood. Back then Gerald was almost a professional diver.

They have arrived in the main aquarium, not their favorite place but cool enough to see some divers’ giving food for the fishes. And to take pictures.

They walked around seeing fishes, enjoying under water scenery.

Antasena Hall is their favorite spot in SeaWorld, an underwater hall with travelator and see-through glass along the hall.

“So, are we good?” asked Gerald.

“Yes, are we sick?” joked back Karen.

“Karen, do you know that there are so many galleries in London even in Manchester” Gerald tried to convince her again.

They both applied for UK and USA visa together, both received the two visas but they got different job offer.

Karen just smiled without saying a word.

Awkwardness bombed the situation, no words to say, things have been discussed but no one satisfied with the result.  They smiled at the fishes, No…they laughed off the dreams.

“We still can meet, I’m sure for that, I can visit you and you can visit me, right? We’re still we” the last words were the unsure things Karen have said.

Time clocked to 4 in the afternoon, time flied with unsure things.

They are about to leave Antasena Hall.

For the last time Gerald asked “I’m really leaving tomorrow, aren’t you coming with me?”

Karen answered him, “I’m leaving too but I’ll come over your place”

-END-

Debora Sheiren Monica                                                                             6/25/2013

COMO5A/TECWED                                                                                   Ms. Joana Manio

Well if my friends read this, they def will laugh at me. Anyway, I love Karen, she's gonna be a cool gallery girl! :P And sharon, You'll be a cool PR girl! ;)

man, warn me!

Just got home 2 days ago.

U know what is cheating? Stalking another hu-MAN-being. I'm doing this right now, I feel so dang cheater! Hahahhaha!!! U know my motto "A wanderer but very faithful"....Ohh Man, I screw that motto. My only sweet question is I cheat from who? Do i have ummm, u know? No I don't, i mean i'm just seeing around but Imma cheater. 

Anyway i don't know why we seem to be in a very conflict situation although we are actually in the same time zone, or don't tell me Java has their own time zone? Hahahaha. What-so-ever, u seem way toooo busy, like haven't seen u for ages. Saw u blink of eye then gone. Have fun with school stuffs and i know school, crazy outputs, quizzes, exam might drives u nuts. i totally understand. 

Blaine - Hopelessly Devoted

Good Night Jakarta and Philippines!

I got no plan for weekend so can we speak then, keep it between friend?

on the same surface

i feel so amazed to meet this stranger for 2 days in different places! I felt like wow when i met this stranger for the second time. Its not like because he's a guy or whatever, its just that its so cool to encountered this kinda situation. We didn't talk tho' but i believe both of us were wondering when we saw each other earlier.

We met in Oppa Korean Resto, me and ate jen ate there last night, i loved the place, its like reminiscing high school period where my brain was filled with K-Pop stuffs. O yeah, i was madly crazy in-love with Korea and their stuffs, i think even until now. I still find that Korean girls and guys are so unique and i just love when they talk to each other. So this stranger was eating with his gang (ahjussi's gang), he doesnt look old  although i consider him as ahjussi. Anyway, i no care with age, looks, or watever....im just amazed that i met him again! isnt it kool?! its like stalking with no intention. or u call this destiny? Hahhahaa. I do believe in destiny.

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Anyway tomorrow is my last day in the Philippines, im leaving on Friday, fly-thru Malaysia then Jakarta. I just can't believe that I have done my second year in college without tears of homesick. I did feel homesick, it was crazy, i felt lost for a month but i handled it! and this could be the last summer that im coming home because from what i hear next summer will be the start of internship. okay, its still long way to goooo!

Ive read this somewhere in tumblr, this aint the proper quote but the point was like "there are times that we actually already meet the person whom will be our partner" U know wat i mean, right? hahahah!!! I just don't understand why but i keep thinking about this one.....hahha well maybe i have. But whooooooooooo??? I wanna know, like in one song that i forgot, it says we can be friends first. Hahahahha!!!

Cool things come to those who worked on it. I really really thank my Lord, Jesus Christ for all these blessings, good grade and good life and good family. I cant say that i worked hard on my college days but it all turned out good. I may not that really good like im not typical church girl, i believe each of us has different call. So, work on that call for the glory of Our Lord!

I'm so amazed and happy for some people! They are like inspiration for me to work more beautifully.

Love, Renc.

Have a lovely summer and the rest of second sem loves!!!

Heart Attack

Udah beberapa hari gue dapet heart attack, beberapa hari ini yang paling heart attack tadi pagi. Udah gue hindari dari jeepney sampe dalem kampus eeehh ketemu juga sama si Kevin -___- Engga enak aja ngeliat muka nya. Hahahaha, engga enak apa malu? Gak dua-dua nya. Jadi minggu depan itu Final exam buat semester ke-2 ditahun ke-2 ini. Fiuuuhh, third year juga akhir nya gue, Inget masa-masa lalu waktu semester satu gue pengen pulang gara-gara dosen gue bilang Batavia itu ada di Malaysia. Sakit gak sih hati lo? Hahahah, gak penting sih ya tapi kalo lo tinggal jauh gitu deh, suka sensitive.

Udah pada tau kan gue udah 18 sekarang? Hahahha kaya pengumuman gitu deh, Gue lagi suka nulis article sekarang dimulai dari pelajaran nya Ms.Manio, disuru buat blog terus buat article dan gue bahkan interview-in Cindy Karmoko loh. Doi banget, gue comment di instagram langsung dibales. Best Wishes buat Kak Cindy deh ;)

Sebenarnya alasan gue ngeblog malam ini karnaaa....KARNAAAA GUE LUPA ISI ARTICLE YANG MAU GUE TULISSS!!! Beneran lupa selupa-lupa-nya, gue udah mikirin topik sampe isi sampe conclusion nya tapi gak gue tulis cuman kepikiran diotak, sekarang aku udah lupa semua nya. Gue coba buat nulis tapi muter-muter hasil nya :(

Sebenarnya gue juga bingung sama yang mau gue lakuin nanti abis lulus, gue 100% pengen jadi flight-attendant deh, gue pengen sekolah di Milan (tapi itu agak goyah, gue pikir-pikir i may be good in communication but probably fashion is not my path) Meskipun gue pengen banget belajar Fashion Communication. See, gue jadi bingung...Sekarang gue suka nulis tentang Social Media, Jadi bingung. Bingung banget.

Speaking of "Change", ive been thinking about this one. Im pretty sure some people would have thought that i am changing into someone new and probably they pray harder for me  because of this. Anyway, I appreciate and grateful for all the prayers! I personally think that I do not change into somebody, im doing fine as me, the same person or maybe im getting thinner? Hahha joke. Anyway, im not changing into power ranger pink, im still me. Its just some things have changed.
End of Discussion.

I'm going back home to Jakarta in 16days!! YEAY, honestly something that really bother my brain is what will i wear on 29th! :)

xoxo-Renc! Do check my other blog Petit Journaliste, and i'd appreciate if u give comment. and any inspiration to write.

and guess what???????????????????!!!! I KNOW YOUR SCHEDULE! :p not really match with mine but we both dont have class at 4 in the afternoon to evening. Im not stalking you, i just found it, idk how. :D

I can be................

Hello! Its been pretty while since my last post, ive been busy with school and school and school. I actually been busy with my feelings, complicated feelings. Honestly i cant get off the homesick feeling until last monday, i feel so heavy, i feel like things are not going right, i feel misplaced, and other negative vibrate I felt. Now im all set! I feel Great! I should feel great all time. Best is yet to come but Lord has made it beautifully. Amen!
I really wanna know the anniversary of this blog, I think ive been doing this for years. I should celebrate this year!

I can be................there are things that bother me lately, I wanna know why guys really love love love girl with long straight hair? and theyre actually stereotyping these girls as the most beautiful girl (or is it only me?) Hahahha. I have to admit that I am an observer (not a stalker), I observe I watch I look all things around me (but I do stalk sometimes). Joke!.............and honestly I know I am pretty, smart, blessed, def  a success person (amen to that) but i do sometimes feel insecure around these girls. I am not jealous or envy, i like them seriously meskipun kadang-kadang bete kalo deke-deket mereka hahahah (masih manusia).

What Im trying to say is.....I may not have that long pretty straight hair, I may not be that tall, I cant explain how cardiac muscle works perfectly, i cant get journal entries perfectly, i cant flip my hair like the others do, I bun my hair like everyday but I can be that pretty date for dinners, silly chat mate, coffee-mate, good listener, a wise-to-be adviser, other than that i can be your stylist (trust me i have a good taste in style) and your shopping mate!

Love, Rence! 2013 KITA BISA!