Kidnapping thyself

How are you?

I'm not in  a really good term with myself or say it, people in the house. So, apparently my mother decided not to talk to me until June 10th (Flying myself back to the Philippines). I have been silent for unsure reasons, I just felt upset about stuffs that I don't know.

This morning I decided to left the house so I asked some of my friends even my stupid cousin if they have time to just hang around with me but they are buys since its exam days. Now, I'm popping out of the house without telling them and went to watch X-Men "Days of Future Past" and grabbing some lunch at Jakarta's vintage restaurant owned by famous TV person/chef, I have seen him a lot in TV.

I don't really know why I do this or stayed silent for almost a week or two-weeks? I usually have this week-blues before I fly back to Philippines but this one is rebellious, beyond my expectation of being rebel. Even my mother told I need to get lesson. And I definitely will get sermon by everybody in the house about 3 hours from now. Of course I'm going back home.

I tried to do some editing here but I guessed I have lost the ability of video-editing. I don't even know hot to trim the videos. I would love to take some picture of this pretty vintage restaurant. But I don't bring cellphone (just in case they'd call me but they are not).

Anyways this place called Kopi Oey. A very vintage restaurant, a bit of Java & Bali touch inside and also old songs accompany me (I'm on headset tho, Clean Bandit - Rather be).

A couple of days ago, I woke up with a diagram thought:

We always want to be liked, favourited just to make sure we are exist in front of them, then we want to be retweet-ed, replied just to make sure ourselves they know/aware that we are alive and care for them....or just want-to-know about their lives(?), and eventually we interact and want them to be ours, to make them mine.

I just feel like there will be no SATISFACTION in social media's life. We always want people to be aware of us especially to those we fancy. And for being NOT satisfied makes us weak. Or is it only me?

And its raining here, everybody. And yes I'm taking public transport, so I have to wait for the rain to stop.

This is my first time strolling around Jakarta on my own, I usually do this almost every week in the Philippines. New feeling of being on my own in a big city.

-- When I am with you, there's no place I rather be

Ciao, I'll probably will post something new in a month (if I remember and if....just if)

xoxo

Monic!

The Beautitutes

My best-friend told me, I probably will look different this summer or I'm maturer than before (maybe that's what she meant). I told her I'm only getting older and wishing I'm wiser. The past days, I spent my midnight reading my bible, a wow level-up. I enjoy every scripture I read, it does open new perspective. Indeed, that's the greatest book on earth. 

How is college? I would love to say, its doing great. It does, well it's just that the great things sometimes only achieved after we face mountain of problems. I'm facing it right now. I don't want to see college as burden in life, I believe this is part of learning, part of life. Well, I do keep myself  on positive perspective. And grateful for every bit of dilemma, problems, steps am facing right now.

Love and Friendship. I am so grateful having Mariana and Riris, my high-school bestfriends. Tasya, my forever mate from middle school. I learn things about friendship here, rather I'm grateful for these Women of God. My mates, my best-friends, they do keep me in balance. And most of it, they support me in everything I do, they tell me when they don't like about something, we share same vision. 

I found myself in funny way where I always considered people every time I made "Yes" decision instead they do find my decision oppose their wants or what suppose to happen. I just don't get, am I in a wrong way? Your good is NOT good enough. Learn more, Do good things not because of people but for Him. 

At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another.  But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, He saved us,not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. Titus 3-5a

I don't find myself very religious, I do think I'm a bitch sometimes but I long to learn How he loves us so I can learn to love others the way he does. So sound religious, but I'm telling you, when you realize about love is the greatest of all things, you will know the real means of freedom in life.

Once I pray the lyrics of Hosanna, it says, show me how to love like You have loved, breaks my heart from what breaks Yours. It does break a heart when hatred bigger than love.

Love is louder than pressure to be perfect. Especially His Love.

With love,

Rence.

And yes! Couple pics of mine today needed to be post too! Thanks to Ram and Roshita for make up and Hair do! Super love!

 Last thing! I was searching MotherTukker in India on google last February 28 instead I found my pics on search engine. So funny and brought highest happiness on my birthday. More interesting, Max Cantellow replied my tweets two times and one fave (so detail!) So favorite MotherTukker!

that xx

Hello! Its been long time since my last post, right? I have been good...Now i am in Jakarta having my beautiful summer. I mean lazy summer. Hopefully i can get hire as volunteer by next week. How are you doing? Mine've been like Verlaine and Rimbaud (?).......I actually have lots of things in mind even for my Petit Journaliste but I feel so dang lazy, I can't help it anymore. It's been one month and my routines are crazy, it is just "Whole day sleeping, eating, online, sleeping" and over again....See, that is so not good, Good thing i don't gain weight.
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I hate Jampang so much. I have liked him like until I'm choked over it, its like the time when i eat tocino, because i like it i eat digest so much but at the end i have to throw it out. Isn't it too sad? :(
What the heck man?!
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I know this is cheating.............but i havent seen you for long time...its crazy how hard to see you on the damn line when we are in the same time zone while i see you every seconds when im in Phil. So ain't right. I couldn't help. Who am i?

So i applied for volunteer work here in Jakarta, hopefully they will contact as soon as next week since they have received reply email from my references. I honestly so excited to work. I met my friend three days ago, she's working in HR Dept in one of the biggest Photography store in town, isn't it cool?
Speaking of Photography, my dad bought me a DSLR...Yeayyy!!! Thank youu super mucho Papa! Do u wanna know what i feel after i have that camera? I feel like its a waste for having a good camera when you don't even know how to use it properly. So in return i'm learning photography from uncle (Hopefully he's willing to teach, kasi a bit maarte si tito :))

and Happy Birthday Sir!!! Have a happiest, fullest, blessed year ahead! I am excited to see more pics in instagram :D *stalker mode?*

Why "that xx"? If u one of billion GD's fans, u might know his song that xx....I heard Andrew Choi's version and its so good...i love how he curse throughout the song Hahhahaha!!!!

Dear whoever who have read my thread above, I'm deeply sorry. I dont have attention to stalk or followed u, but dont u think its too obvious? LOL! Anyway wish u luck!

Good Night! :)

man, warn me!

Just got home 2 days ago.

U know what is cheating? Stalking another hu-MAN-being. I'm doing this right now, I feel so dang cheater! Hahahhaha!!! U know my motto "A wanderer but very faithful"....Ohh Man, I screw that motto. My only sweet question is I cheat from who? Do i have ummm, u know? No I don't, i mean i'm just seeing around but Imma cheater. 

Anyway i don't know why we seem to be in a very conflict situation although we are actually in the same time zone, or don't tell me Java has their own time zone? Hahahaha. What-so-ever, u seem way toooo busy, like haven't seen u for ages. Saw u blink of eye then gone. Have fun with school stuffs and i know school, crazy outputs, quizzes, exam might drives u nuts. i totally understand. 

Blaine - Hopelessly Devoted

Good Night Jakarta and Philippines!

I got no plan for weekend so can we speak then, keep it between friend?