Apparently my itchy feet brought me to Kuala Lumpur. Its been almost two months since I moved to KL, having another round of best time of my life.
Life has been so great so does relationship. Lloyd and I are getting more and more look alike which I hope its a good thing. He's getting as maldita as me and I learned to be as sweet as him. No words can explain how I missed to be with, spend time with my man.
This November, we celebrate the goodness of God and 7th month dating. Hardly believe that I can keep a guy for quite long time (First boyfriend lol). Lloyd has been so good, we went ups and downs due to connection issue, moods and hormones.
Now I am working at IT company in KL whilst Lloyd is working on his baby thesis. Practically speaking, my life is so good right now; blessed with amazing boyfriend, nice job and amazing family. Yet i need to admit that I do get bored sometimes.
Remember when I was sixteen, I was wondered how will I see myself when I reached twenty. Now I am twenty year-old, I got my BA, working, adventuring. I started to think: What do I want to be when I reach 30? How do I see myself then?
Cannot think at all. I know what I want to do in five years or until I reach twenty eight.
I want adventure. I want to make a living somewhere I don't know. I want not-so long distance love-life (of course with Lloyd!)
Right time right place! He makes it perfect.
Much love!
23 November, 2015
09 May, 2015
the craziest/sweetest/weirdest/love of my life
He's the sweetest, he told me I am beautiful when I wear make up even more when I don't and look a bit ugly. He seems like the opposite of nowadays' boys, he'd leave corny comment "cant wait to be with you again, love". He's the most corny but I missed his ka-corny-han every day.
He'd call me love even when I call him barbie. He'd say "I support you, love..I understand you, love". I told him I might abuse his kindness, he said its alright cause he loves me.
This guy and he's being in love is crazy. He's out of mind.
And yes he told me he would wait for me...oh have I told you we come from different countries? Have you heard people say it wont work out? "Maghiwalay din kayo....sabi nila", "You guys are gonna break up at the end", "Nanti juga putus ren, masih anget-anget aja".
He said its okay when I fell asleep whilst he still makes kwento about his day. He said "I'm excited for University na...I wanna graduate na"..."Lets go Cebu, gusto mo diba love?"
He's the crush of 2014 and the one who "crash" my 2014 but he told me "...but I'll fix you this 2015 love", he said "ikaw ay pag-ibig na hinintay".
He's my favorite Filipino guy, he tried to talk to me in English but he does speak English so good. He wants to go to Australia, he's the man-friend who makes me smile, laugh as hard as I can and cry a river.
He'd not play Clash of Clans for a month for me, he'd tell me "love, laro lang ako ng nba2k okay"...he could have just played the game without telling me.
He made weird hashtags #MyGirlfriendIsaWriter #SlowClapAgain, he posted cheesy caption "for as long as we share the same sky and breathe the same air, we're still together"
He asked me on my graduation day whilst drinking green tea at starbucks, we rode Ferris wheel on our first date. He said, when I went to Ilocos its like a training ground for LDR.
He almost cried when we prayed together. He ate with me at my favorite tapas place. He knows my fave McDonald's ice cream cone.
He doesn't like me wearing my converse and black spider skirt. He told me "tumataba ka na love ngayon", he kept on checking me when I was on my way to Manila airport "keep your money safe, pambili natin car yan"
I'm in love but he's more in love. Mahal kita kasi eh. Kaluguran daka. I love you. Aku cinta kamu.
I don't know what will happen in the future but last night he asked "Meant to be ba tayo, love?" I told him "I don't know...just pray for it"
He told me "bakit ako? mas madami pa better guys out there", I asked the same thing... he said "You're different, your attitude, you challenge me"...am I challenging?
He sang "we found love right where we are" but he said "I don't like Ed"
There are times when its hard to say "I love you back!" but from the bottom of this unstable mind and heart "I love you to the bones"....another decade will go, I probably won't come across path with someone as crazy, sweet, weird like you.
You are loved. Mahal kita. Kaluguran da ka.
He'd call me love even when I call him barbie. He'd say "I support you, love..I understand you, love". I told him I might abuse his kindness, he said its alright cause he loves me.
This guy and he's being in love is crazy. He's out of mind.
And yes he told me he would wait for me...oh have I told you we come from different countries? Have you heard people say it wont work out? "Maghiwalay din kayo....sabi nila", "You guys are gonna break up at the end", "Nanti juga putus ren, masih anget-anget aja".
He said its okay when I fell asleep whilst he still makes kwento about his day. He said "I'm excited for University na...I wanna graduate na"..."Lets go Cebu, gusto mo diba love?"
He's the crush of 2014 and the one who "crash" my 2014 but he told me "...but I'll fix you this 2015 love", he said "ikaw ay pag-ibig na hinintay".
He's my favorite Filipino guy, he tried to talk to me in English but he does speak English so good. He wants to go to Australia, he's the man-friend who makes me smile, laugh as hard as I can and cry a river.
He'd not play Clash of Clans for a month for me, he'd tell me "love, laro lang ako ng nba2k okay"...he could have just played the game without telling me.
He made weird hashtags #MyGirlfriendIsaWriter #SlowClapAgain, he posted cheesy caption "for as long as we share the same sky and breathe the same air, we're still together"
He asked me on my graduation day whilst drinking green tea at starbucks, we rode Ferris wheel on our first date. He said, when I went to Ilocos its like a training ground for LDR.
He almost cried when we prayed together. He ate with me at my favorite tapas place. He knows my fave McDonald's ice cream cone.
He doesn't like me wearing my converse and black spider skirt. He told me "tumataba ka na love ngayon", he kept on checking me when I was on my way to Manila airport "keep your money safe, pambili natin car yan"
I'm in love but he's more in love. Mahal kita kasi eh. Kaluguran daka. I love you. Aku cinta kamu.
I don't know what will happen in the future but last night he asked "Meant to be ba tayo, love?" I told him "I don't know...just pray for it"
He told me "bakit ako? mas madami pa better guys out there", I asked the same thing... he said "You're different, your attitude, you challenge me"...am I challenging?
He sang "we found love right where we are" but he said "I don't like Ed"
There are times when its hard to say "I love you back!" but from the bottom of this unstable mind and heart "I love you to the bones"....another decade will go, I probably won't come across path with someone as crazy, sweet, weird like you.
You are loved. Mahal kita. Kaluguran da ka.
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| Christmas Party 2014 -- I've never seen you play basketball but the girls told me you're cool. You look great here, love ! *that guy with neon shoes* |
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| I like you to the bones! |
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| I missed tapas date....I superb miss. |
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| We got through crazy things and I was crazy yet you stayed calm and chill...You say "Its gonna be okay, tiwala ka sakin"
Love lots to you, Lloyd.
Shawie.
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19 March, 2015
the end
I'm graduating in 3 weeks. So happy with what I have reached so far.
College has been great. We do good also but I need to step back or I guess forward. We talk in a good way, I assume in a wrong way. I shall stop. I shall not stop.
Sometimes I wonder if only, we stop where we stop back then. At least, we wouldn't be in the same weird situation again. I won't be assumed, pondered, lose my mind again.
I want you all to be happy. I want me to be happy. I told you, I would forget you. I tell you the truth.
Let me have the rest of days, talking, laughing, smiling, clapping, walking, swinging, banging my head from funny conversation, linking my arms around before I jump into a new adventure.
I pretty much believe, we'll be ending at "Hello-Hi" only. That's why there's no need to push things now.
Do the things that will make you happy, stay awake, keep challenge yourself, encourage her....Tell her she's doing great there.
I so far look forward to meet someone I'll find more fascinating than you.
Love.
College has been great. We do good also but I need to step back or I guess forward. We talk in a good way, I assume in a wrong way. I shall stop. I shall not stop.
Sometimes I wonder if only, we stop where we stop back then. At least, we wouldn't be in the same weird situation again. I won't be assumed, pondered, lose my mind again.
I want you all to be happy. I want me to be happy. I told you, I would forget you. I tell you the truth.
Let me have the rest of days, talking, laughing, smiling, clapping, walking, swinging, banging my head from funny conversation, linking my arms around before I jump into a new adventure.
I pretty much believe, we'll be ending at "Hello-Hi" only. That's why there's no need to push things now.
Do the things that will make you happy, stay awake, keep challenge yourself, encourage her....Tell her she's doing great there.
I so far look forward to meet someone I'll find more fascinating than you.
Love.
05 December, 2014
Wonderland
Its been a while. I don't know if someone has posted this one online but I keep saying this short poem to myself.
I seem like I have mental issue, I can be happy for a day then have a so-bad day next. I like talking to you then you're gone. I like talking to you then I think a lot about many things then I'm gone.
Then we crawl, we talk, we start it all again.
What do you take me for?
We like talking to each other. I found my new comfort zone with you and how about you? I asked, you said its alright, its alright talking to me. But we keep talk...about everything. I told you nonsense things, you skip a second and laugh like its really funny.
Is this right?
No, what is this?
You don't have to tell me what you ate, I don't have to tell where did I go but we do, we did.
I'm the happiest when I'm with you....but people change. I think I should.
This isn't right nor wrong. We're in between.
And the thing is I have that power more than you. You don't have it, guts.
Darling, I'm a nightmare dress like a daydream.
Does it hurt? She asks
Its a bit of headache and heartacheI like everything I have right now. College, internship, church friends, Starbucks buddy, campus mates and You.
I seem like I have mental issue, I can be happy for a day then have a so-bad day next. I like talking to you then you're gone. I like talking to you then I think a lot about many things then I'm gone.
Then we crawl, we talk, we start it all again.
What do you take me for?
We like talking to each other. I found my new comfort zone with you and how about you? I asked, you said its alright, its alright talking to me. But we keep talk...about everything. I told you nonsense things, you skip a second and laugh like its really funny.
Is this right?
No, what is this?
You don't have to tell me what you ate, I don't have to tell where did I go but we do, we did.
I'm the happiest when I'm with you....but people change. I think I should.
This isn't right nor wrong. We're in between.
And the thing is I have that power more than you. You don't have it, guts.
Darling, I'm a nightmare dress like a daydream.
09 November, 2014
Waiting In Wisdom
As we all know, I pretty much enjoy fancying and talking about strangers. Its rare to have the one that I can talk personally or I can even hold.
I pretty much enjoy and fancy the time, silly conversation, unnecessary topics, emoticons....apparently everything. Well I think, it is way more complicated with real people and in real life.
I have this butterfly and flower everywhere but One thing I pray, if this is Not, let us grow naturally into a beautiful friendship where we still encourage and listen to each other.
Lovely, listen well, encouraging and most of it, I become spiritually inspired.
As I wait for You, I am made more faithful.
Love,
Renc.
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