“We will meet in Paris. I told
Gerald I’m going to Europe, he didn't reply…for a week.”
“Airport,
bound to the city I used to dream, alone, for work precisely. How exciting is
that!” I told myself.
I found myself in boarding room, again, alone. I remembered
that day when I left for Seattle. He called me.
“Yes
Dine…”
“You
still can go back if you want” he said
“I will
see you soon, I told you we’ll be okay” I said with no doubt.
To all passengers bound to Paris please proceed to gate A1.
“This is
it” I told myself, “I’m going to work there and not-more than that”.
About Gerald, we are still in that invisible relationship.
Don’t ask where exactly we are.
I’m standing next to a British guy and I thought maybe I
should have gone to London…Maybe I should have…STOP, STOP thinking about it.
“Yup” I
answered Gerald’s call
“See
you in Paris, I’m coming to see you” he said…it drives me crazy
“Ehh..ya,
sure, talk to you soon. I’m on the plane, about to fly” I told him
I have not cut the line. I said “I missed you” but I hear
Gerald cut the line already.
Paris is always a good idea. Funny, cause I always wanted to
live here. Before, when I was young and all I know, Gerald and I are meant to be
no matter what happens.
“I just
arrived in Paris” I chat Ryry.
While waiting for Ryry’s reply, I received a text. He told
me something I have not heard for a while.
“Little
one, I’m going out to see a colleague here maybe tomorrow, shall we…meet?” Down
there in his message, he said “I missed you too”.
“RYRY!!!
He called me little one. I don’t know, I don’t know now” Karen chat Ryry with
her weird excitement.
Karen isn’t ready to let go Gerald. Maybe will never do.
Her first day in Paris was awesome; she has the chance to
attend some arts exhibition and meeting lovely people.
“They
don’t know, they don’t really know” Karen mumbled to herself.
Break up was not an option but it is now. Karen hasn’t seen
Gerald for a long time, even talked, even BBM, even good morning, even sleep
well or call her with that nickname which drives her crazy.
“See
you tomorrow” Karen’s last words to Gerald
Weird because it’s pretty chill today, Karen and Gerald
found each other at a restaurant. Karen saw Gerald whilst Gerald sitting with a
cup of tea.
“Hi
babe” he told me
“Hi
Dine, it’s been a year” I told him
“How’s
life? How’s work? How was it without me? Okay, I was only joking
“Chill
down, I’m all good so does work, I was so miserable without you” he said whilst
smiling. Tell me whether it’s true or not. It is not.
“Shall
we walk around?” He asked
“How
was it without me? He told me with that pretty little smile.
Karen missed it. She missed it. It’s funny because she felt
it’s embarrassing to say.
“I was
doing great” I lied. “I’m okay but I missed you, there are times I regret why I
went to Seattle, why is this happening to us, Why am I like this? That’s all I
wanted to say…..I can’t.
“Great!
I couldn’t say more, you are way braver than me” He embraced me. It was weird,
I missed it too much.
“I
missed you” I said, “I missed you moooooooooooore” He said
“Or
maybe….” He started the same thing again and again
I told him “I regret sometimes but
I know this is not wrong thing to do, it is part of growing up”.
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Hi lads! Have you guys watched Wong Fu's new short "After Us"? I was so excited and waiting for it so long. They featured an artist name April Nhem. I started listen to her album "Sirenum" since then. There is one song called "Paris", it says Lets wake up in Paris, I'll show all the city lights...I got my high heels red dress, its kinda skin type strapless, You tell me I'm so lovely". Couple of nights ago I heard it wrong, it was ringing on my head "Lets break up in Paris". I spent my Saturday shooting for Short Film fest in campus, we shoot from 7AM to 2AM, I started writing this around 9PM. The first thought was to end Karen and Gerald under the Eiffel. I mean, I have never heard anyone breaking up in Eiffel Tower, so why don't we make one? It turned out I couldn't make it. I don't wanna this to end, I've been writing this for a year. Although its short, somehow this is a kind of relationship that I want.
Anyway, I have been doing great! So busy with College and my mates. Anyway, I'm graduating this school year which is next March. I pretty much excited to go back to Jakarta and work. Maybe going out to the next adventure.
Lovelove.
Renc!
https://soundcloud.com/aprilnhem My Current fave!
