Happy 2014

Happy 2014 loves! I am truly thankful for every of you and for things you have done or gave to me. Words can't described how I feel so loved.

For the past months, I have been confused with things, I am not lost but I just could not figure things out in happiness path. Things goes wrong, that's what I thought. In 2013, I still cry for a small shout, still cry over a unfriendly face, still pissed off over unnecessary gossips, still pissed off over things that I should have just enjoyed and say "I don't care". 

I am still not sure if I can 180 degree change (for better) but I heard the senior pastor in church preached about confusion that drives us away from happiness, he concluded that being confused and started to regret things even living in regret, afraid to try new things, afraid to fail, afraid to fall, afraid for every little thing will just put us away from His blessings. He showers us with tremendous blessings.

I decided, I probably don't have any resolution since I am still in the middle of junior year of college and by June 2014, I will start internship and thesis. The two are my education priority so far. I pray for Love, Healthy, and Longevity. 

And  one thing that I got from my fave pastor Jussac. *Lanjut pake Bhs Indonesia* Tuhan Yesus lahir di kandang domba, ditaruh di palungan dan di Israel palungan sebenarnya dipakai untuk menaruh makanan. Yesus sebagai roti kehidupan. Yesus lahir di balut dengan kain lampin, Yesus mati disalibkan lalu dikubur dibalut dengan kain kafan di taru diatas meja batu (They didn't bury him) means Yesus mulai dan mengakhiri dengan kesamaan. Alpha and Omega. Yang awal dan Yang akhir. Gue sangat bersyukur buat khotbah ini. Ada beberapa point bagus yang susah buat di jelasin dengan kata-kata. Intinya, Yesus sendiri udah jadi sumber kehidupan, yang kita harus lakuin itu, Iman harus naik level terus, nyembah, bersyukur, minta......He's about to give even we don't ask for it.

And for what I have been looking for and maybe not praying for, before.

I really want to have someone who I can lean on when no one's around. In 2013, I have always my eyes open but rarely pray for it. But now, I will open my eyes but won't be focus on wrong thing. I'd be focus on He has one for me  and about to come, he's near, I am about to have. I used to say it'd be complicated if I have one too-spiritual little one with me. But, I want one who'd say "Lu tau gak Tuhan tuh baik banget....and start with amazing story", a-day in ministry, and I pray it'd be an Indonesian. 

HAPPY 2014! Long-lives Father, Mother, Sisters, and Big Fam! To graduate on March 2015, Having little one with big faith to the Lord this 2014, Amazing summer (To get work!), and No More Cengeng!!!

With Love, 

Eren.