Bday x Sakit x Patah Hati

Hello! I am Eighteen!
Pretty cool enough to be eighteen, could go to clubs now. Hahahah! No, i'm not that kind of teenager. I prefer coffee shop or restaurants. I like food, sitting in wood chair, wondering, drowning in daydream. Highly appreciate my friends and profs who spent time with me on my birffday, had picnic, foods, pictures, and sweet talks. Speaking of sakit (sick), I don't feel well since my birffday although i was looked okay and we even went to some resto to get food and bday cake but actually i wasnt feeling well, i dont feel well even until now.
Period was over yet i feel so pissed off over an old friend and some friends. Sometimes i think whether they are qualified enough to be called friends, maybe theyre not. Had mini talk with ate jen in the car about "degree of friends" hahaha we were so random! Honestly the more i know people the more i want to get distance with them. Its just me, i dont like being tie with certain people or groups. People might think im not a faithful person but i dont really care about those perspective as long as i think im in the right track ill do whatever i wanna do.
Honestly i feel so brokenhearted hahaha!!! No, i dont have boyfriend nor someone who's courting me right now. I feel like i wanna be India Stoker then start killing people, well this could be hormones. My damn neighbor is so damn annoying and as i said i could be india stoker, hahahah!!! Stoker was pretty cool/crazy movie, def love uncle Charlie!
I don't feel well yet these people are not really understand about what i feel but good thing i still have good friends which bring joy through instagram/twitter. I deactivated my facebook account because.................BECAUSE I DONT WANNA SEE U ANYMORE! hahahah......first i dont wanna see that fellow, second i wanna slow down myself from social media or i can say from facebook.

I just wanna go home (FYI im in a bad term with people back home)Hahahhaa!!! See, im so bad, and i dont know why?! :( and to tell u the truth if i could move out i def would do it. I just cant be a good neighbor or...................i dont know, things seems not-so-good.

Speaking of "Kita Bisa", i think WE NEED TO MOVE ON! i mean I NEED TO..........im not going to compete with anyone in this crazy world.

love love love, Renc.